Welcome to A Mother’s Special Calling!
I’ve been wanting to write my personal experiences for a while, but I never felt like my life was spectacular enough to write about or that anyone would want to read it. Then a couple of years ago, I returned back to Christianity after years of being away and my life has since changed so much and I have found more meaning than I ever thought possible. However, I still hesitated in writing, believing that I did not have enough biblical knowledge to write this type of blog. So, I waited thinking it wasn’t the right time yet.
In 2021, I lost my father. While it was a devastating loss, I felt a strange since of hope. I finally understood what faith was. My entire life, faith was just a word. I understood the concept, but I just couldn’t grasp it. I always had doubts. When my father died, I felt undeniable faith that I would one day see him again. There was no doubt in my mind or my heart that this was the truth.
After his passing, I started writing again. He was always so proud of my hobbies. He loved when I taught myself how to play the clarinet, when I started playing basketball in school, when I took photographs, and when I published a book. I don’t know if he ever read the book, as he wasn’t much of a reader, but he was proud. I had basically quit writing after the boys were born, it was hard to juggle writing, parenting, and housekeeping. But thinking back to how he praised me for my accomplishments, I started writing again just to keep that memory alive.
I had started writing, but I still wasn’t ready to start sharing my journey. I still had too many doubts and fears. It wasn’t until I was livestreaming one Sunday (the boys must have been sick, sleeping, or unruly that morning). Our pastor was preaching series on Exodus. I went into the sermon thinking it would be a good history lesson, but came out going WOW! He was preaching about how Moses was telling God, to send someone else to free the Israelites from slavery. I am not qualified, I don’t have the eloquent speech needed for this task. Basically saying send anyone but me. That sermon hit me right in the heart. That’s exactly what I had been saying about sharing my story, my own testimony of faith.
After that Sunday, I decided I was going to start this blog. I started outlining the purpose of this blog and what I wanted to share. Then, I started drafting a few posts, none of which I finished. However, I still hadn’t started working on actually sharing my story. Then this past Sunday evening, the sermon was titled “Many Members, One Body” with the main sermon text being 1 Corinthians chapter 12. During the course of the sermon, he mentioned using the gifts that God bestowed on us for His glory. He specifically mentioned a lady that has a gift of being able to send an uplifting note at just the right time and others who just taking to you make you feel better. As the sermon continued, this blog kept popping up in my head. After the sermon, I was standing in the back of the church talking to another parishioner having not yet made it to the pastor to greet him as we left the sanctuary. Since we were some of the last people to leave our pastor came up to us, he shook the hand of the gentleman I was speaking to and gave me the “side hug”, which was just the encouragement I needed. After church that evening, I realized I needed to utilize my gifts better, one of which is writing and telling stories.
Tuesday morning, I was sorting through the papers that were in our church mailbox and came across a newsletter in which our pastor wrote an article encouraging us to give our personal testimony of faith to praise our Savior. “Okay, okay! Message received.”
So yesterday, I got to work and started creating this blog. I always find it so fascinating how God’s providence works. Our lives have been filled with providence and honestly life is much easier when I stop ignoring it and actually go in the direction it points.
And if you’ve made it through my ramblings this far, I thank you!
This blog will not only be about my personal testimony of faith and my journey back to the Church, but I also will discuss matters of everyday living. Some of the topics I plan to post about are marriage, child raising, homeschooling, housekeeping, gardening, and just trying to live a Christian life. Every post will be from my own experiences and how we have decided to navigate the world through our lens of faith. I hope you join me on this crazy rollercoaster ride and hopefully find a bit of encouragement along the way.
A Mother's Special Calling 